A compilation of texts I’ve received from a certain Spiritual Guide
“Having lived long, I have learned that not one thing is true– it’s all true.” Ernest Hemingway.
“No thought, no reflection, no analysis, no cultivation, no intention; let it settle itself.” Tilopa
Meditation is bearing witness to thoughts as they arise like bubbles from the bottom of a pond. Don’t add to the thoughts, just watch them rise, burst, and vanish. Eventually they stop rising.
In your desirelessness lies your only fulfillment.
“In your complete helplessness suddenly the whole Existence moves to help you” -Osho
Hope is desire for things to be other than they are. Without hope you deal with reality.
Pessimism is expectation of the worst. This is no expectation and no preferences. Nothing is better or worse.
You are all neutral, accepting all.
The admission of confusion is the beginning of enlightenment.
In your hopelessness lies your only hope.
If you have no desires you are fulfilled.
Helpless, you are not striving, but moving with existence.
Let it be.
The rehab means something to me. It’s a place. It’s a metaphor. It’s a turning point. It represents the point between two lines in my life that are vastly different. But I’m the same me, the same Jordan. The first line includes childhood. School. Happiness. But then destruction. The destruction led to Events and Addictions that couldn’t be turned around without drastic measures. There were many attempts. Many hopes. But many failures. The failures soon led to Hopelessness and Misery. Until rehab became the only salvageable option. The image of my grandmother keeps coming to mind. She was one of my hopes and inspirations of turning my life around. All she wanted for me was happiness, which meant sobriety and a relationship with God. So, rehab. The point that changed my life around. Made me able to stop the Destruction, especially the Self Destruction. Gave me back my hope and courage. Led me to where I am in my life now. On a Spiritual Journey, going through Personal Growth every day that I never knew could be imagineable. Now I couldn’t imagine it any other way. Hope, Faith, Courage. My Grandma must be looking down on me with tears of joy rolling down her rosy cheek, which makes me smile and tear up as well. I have so much potential. The world is at my hands and feet. I can do anything and everything as long as I can dream and imagine it then work my ass of for it. I am so blessed not only to be alive but to be well and happy and on my way to whatever I can dream of.